My Dearest Online Notebook

2004-11-17T06:29:00.000-08:00

whoa...how long have I not been here already? holiday's here,everyone's out to get the fun. I'm going back to Taiwan on the 29th. Quite excited but it's quite boring to be there with no friends around you except for your realtives who don't even notice when you're even around. I hate being ignored and avoid. The only thing I'm looking forward now's this SAturday. Going to gurney with some friends and of course with my dearest boyfriend, Glen. A break dancer, alomost a pro. Last SAturday at PSC was a teen dance and I guess I got a bit carried away. Got a sweet kiss from my boyfriend, Glen. A lot ppl saw us but they seem to make such a big deal out of it. I mean WAT!!! It's perfectly normal to kiss your boyfriend right? Why make such a big deal out of it? i don't believe no one has never kiss their boyfriend or girlfriend. That'll be totally funny about their relationship. Now, ppl from my school's talkin about me kissing the guy in PSC as seems i dun even know the guy and just simpy kissed him!!!! Why would i kiss someone i dun even know?? I'm not that crazy man!!!!!!!! I'm no bitch at all like those girls who flirts around with other guys. If those ppl dun really understand me at all, then jus FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!! If you don' understand me, then just don't talk nonsense about me!!!! Get it!!!!

2004-06-08T02:56:00.000-07:00

It's finally today and I've just got back from Gurney. It's a cool day. I can't believe it's so cold in there. Daniel Radcliffe was so cute and handsome. Hermonie Granger was so pretty and cute too. They're all so good looking and nice. It was a great movie. I went there with a few friends, Szu Yenn, Ying chia, Ying Chia's sister and others. It was really fun I enjoy it so much. I can't believe my eyes when I saw Kelvin Koay with a girl beside him. I realize that she's his girlfriend. So she's the girl who he has been dating when we were boyfriend and girlfriend. He's such a two-timmer but his girlfriend is pretty nice and prety too. We had so much fun>

2004-06-04T06:54:00.000-07:00

Next week is drawing nearer,I'm so happy coz I could go and watch Harry Potter and The Prisoner Of Azkaban. Daniel Radcliffe,one year older is so cute and adorable. I wish I could marry him...hahahaha...just joking. That'll never happen...would it? Anyway, I'll be going with a few friends. I heard that Jolin, a Taiwan singer will be there for a concert on that day but don't know whether it's true or not but I hope so. Well, there's not much news. I've been move to a new tuition center, it's quite,ok not boring like the first one though. There are some of my friends there, like Xin Ying. She's a Harry Potter and Charm freak! Well, gtg now...cya!

2004-05-24T19:42:00.000-07:00

Holidays is this Saturday,I just can't wait.My exam marks are coming out one by one,I'm so scared.Anyway,who can change the marks anyway.If only I have a fairy godmother,I would just told her to zap my marks up!That'll be so good but too bad there's no such thing.By the way,I would like to wish everyone HAPPY HOLIDAYS.

2004-05-21T07:05:00.000-07:00

Holiday is just around the corner and everyone is so happy anout it.Me too!I love holidays,you don't have to go to school,no homework,no teacher,it's just so cool!I've been planning a lot what to do during the holidays.Well,there's one thing for sure,I'm going to watch Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban and Troy!I haven't watch yet!But I've watched Van Helsing!It's so cool!That movie was the greatest!I'm definately looking for someone to go to the movies right now but it seems everyone's pretty occupied so I decided to go with Szu Yenn.She's my good friend.Well,I just hope to go out with someone that I'm ying for,that is James.He's my very old friend.We were very good friends and classmates when we were in Uplands.It was so much fun that time.Then,when I left Uplands,I didn't have any contact with any of my friends from Uplands.We haven't met each other for 6 years!(Whoa!Such a long time!)I was pretty depressed until I saw James last few weeks in Gurney.Wow!He sure had grown.About 190cm something I guess and sure handsome too now.(hehehehe)Well,gtg now...bye..wait for my next news...

2004-05-13T07:31:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,i haven't been able to update anythin recently,my exam is tomorrow and my parents won't let me go online whenever I want.It seems they're treating me like a three year old,like I don't know how to save my time to do something else which are more important but guess what!I hate people controlling my life!I wanna be free like a bird in the big blue sky where I could fly freely with no one to control me.I don't want to be a bird in a cage!That's only suffering and I hate it!I bet no one likes anyone to control their lives.Not even me!well...I really hope every single parent knows about this!Don't ever control your child!They won't like it at all!

2004-04-13T19:36:00.000-07:00

Today when i woke up, I feel so alive. I was never like this. I was always like a half dead zombie which just rose from the grave but today I seem to be quite different.About what happen in the church, I felt very bad about it and I really want to apologize to Darean but the thing is, how to contact him? There's no more money in my cell phone and I don't even know where to start explaining. Why I always have a lot problems in m head! It feels like it's going to burst any minute now. And he seldom online in the morning. It's so hard for me to apologize or anything.I'm never like this to him but why now? I just want to know the reason but I just can't find it. I really lost something in my mind but what is it? Maybe it takes time for me to look for it. I'm sure I'll be able to find it soon or else, I'll lose a friend that I never want to lose. Oh, god...What have I lost???

2004-04-11T07:28:00.000-07:00

I've just came back from the church coz today is Easter Day. The day Jesus rose again. I went with a few friends of mine, they are Jeshua, Chuckie and of course Abby. I was so happy, I made some new friends and they are all very nice. There's this guy name Kelvin. He acted in a part which a son ran away from home just want to live his life. He's very nice and funny. There's this guy in a red shirt. He looks like he's not pure chinese but he is. He said he's 23 years old but he looks younger. He's kinda cute and very nice too. I was so happy but then, I saw Darean. A friend of mine. i saw him but I suddenly feel the urge to avoid him. Why? Why did I feel like this? What's wrong with me? After the drama, Abby said she wanna take a closer look at him and she just pull me to walk with her. When I saw him, I dunno why but i kept myself not to look at him. Why? Isn't he my friend? Then, I felt I just want to run away. I quickly ask for an excuse and ran back to Jeshua. At that time, I felt relieved but why? I'm so confused and frustrated. Oh Why????!!!!

2004-04-10T23:15:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I went shopping for groceries with my parents at Island Plaza. Sometimes, I really hate shopping with my parents. They like to embarrase me in front of so many people. They way they act, the way they talk really freaks me out!I can't stand them! Then, whenever they did something embarrassing, a lot people will be staring at us and I'm always the only one who notice it! My parents don't really care how they act or talk! They like talking very loud and I hate it! Why parents are so embarrassing!!! A lot teenagers don't like hanging out with their parents because they're scarred that their parents will be embarrassing them in front of the whole crowd! Who would like that?! Maybe a cute guy just walked pass you and notice how pretty you are and wanted to turn back and take one more good look at you but at this time, your parents did something embarrassing and the guy saw it! Won't that be humiliating!!!Oh My God!! Thats what happened to me yesterday! I was so damn humiliated!!! Sometimes I just wished I could live on my own with nobody! No one to control my life!! The way I live!! I'll be so happy!! Hanging out with friends everyday with no parents around you! That'll be so great!!! Don't u think???

2004-04-06T18:34:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my school sports day and I guess I got a pretty bad sun burnt. Does any teachers have a brain? I wonder? I think the answer is no. They let you stand at the place which there was sun burning onto your skin. They never care whether you get anything from it or not! They're so sellfish! Ouch! My skin is burning again! It sure hurts a lot! Better see a doctor or something. I met Cynthia yesterday. She's very pretty and has a very good sense of humour. Hope I could make friends with her. She's looks a bit like Japanese. There was this guy with glasses, he was pretty cute. He knocked me without saying "sorry". Isn't that just rude! I could really say he isn't a gentleman at all. If I ever see him again! I'll kill him (joking*) I'll be sent to jail if I really do that. Well, now the sports day is over, I'm waiting for the basketball competition from each of the team, like Blue, Yellow, Green and Purple. I'm from Red team. Last year got third place and that was really unfortunate. I'll win this year! (If I can*)

2004-04-04T19:53:00.000-07:00

Hi, this is my very first blog. I'm so happy that I have one now. Well, I hope everyone could give me some opinion about my blog so I could do better. Post me anything and I'll read through every post when I'm free. Thx and Bye