My Dearest Online Notebook

whoa...how long have I not been here already? holiday's here,everyone's out to get the fun. I'm going back to Taiwan on the 29th. Quite excited but it's quite boring to be there with no friends around you except for your realtives who don't even notice when you're even around. I hate being ignored and avoid. The only thing I'm looking forward now's this SAturday. Going to gurney with some friends and of course with my dearest boyfriend, Glen. A break dancer, alomost a pro. Last SAturday at PSC was a teen dance and I guess I got a bit carried away. Got a sweet kiss from my boyfriend, Glen. A lot ppl saw us but they seem to make such a big deal out of it. I mean WAT!!! It's perfectly normal to kiss your boyfriend right? Why make such a big deal out of it? i don't believe no one has never kiss their boyfriend or girlfriend. That'll be totally funny about their relationship. Now, ppl from my school's talkin about me kissing the guy in PSC as seems i dun even know the guy and just simpy kissed him!!!! Why would i kiss someone i dun even know?? I'm not that crazy man!!!!!!!! I'm no bitch at all like those girls who flirts around with other guys. If those ppl dun really understand me at all, then jus FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!! If you don' understand me, then just don't talk nonsense about me!!!! Get it!!!!

It's finally today and I've just got back from Gurney. It's a cool day. I can't believe it's so cold in there. Daniel Radcliffe was so cute and handsome. Hermonie Granger was so pretty and cute too. They're all so good looking and nice. It was a great movie. I went there with a few friends, Szu Yenn, Ying chia, Ying Chia's sister and others. It was really fun I enjoy it so much. I can't believe my eyes when I saw Kelvin Koay with a girl beside him. I realize that she's his girlfriend. So she's the girl who he has been dating when we were boyfriend and girlfriend. He's such a two-timmer but his girlfriend is pretty nice and prety too. We had so much fun>

Next week is drawing nearer,I'm so happy coz I could go and watch Harry Potter and The Prisoner Of Azkaban. Daniel Radcliffe,one year older is so cute and adorable. I wish I could marry him...hahahaha...just joking. That'll never happen...would it? Anyway, I'll be going with a few friends. I heard that Jolin, a Taiwan singer will be there for a concert on that day but don't know whether it's true or not but I hope so. Well, there's not much news. I've been move to a new tuition center, it's quite,ok not boring like the first one though. There are some of my friends there, like Xin Ying. She's a Harry Potter and Charm freak! Well, gtg now...cya!

Holidays is this Saturday,I just can't wait.My exam marks are coming out one by one,I'm so scared.Anyway,who can change the marks anyway.If only I have a fairy godmother,I would just told her to zap my marks up!That'll be so good but too bad there's no such thing.By the way,I would like to wish everyone HAPPY HOLIDAYS.

Holiday is just around the corner and everyone is so happy anout it.Me too!I love holidays,you don't have to go to school,no homework,no teacher,it's just so cool!I've been planning a lot what to do during the holidays.Well,there's one thing for sure,I'm going to watch Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban and Troy!I haven't watch yet!But I've watched Van Helsing!It's so cool!That movie was the greatest!I'm definately looking for someone to go to the movies right now but it seems everyone's pretty occupied so I decided to go with Szu Yenn.She's my good friend.Well,I just hope to go out with someone that I'm ying for,that is James.He's my very old friend.We were very good friends and classmates when we were in Uplands.It was so much fun that time.Then,when I left Uplands,I didn't have any contact with any of my friends from Uplands.We haven't met each other for 6 years!(Whoa!Such a long time!)I was pretty depressed until I saw James last few weeks in Gurney.Wow!He sure had grown.About 190cm something I guess and sure handsome too now.(hehehehe)Well,gtg now...bye..wait for my next news...

Dear diary,i haven't been able to update anythin recently,my exam is tomorrow and my parents won't let me go online whenever I want.It seems they're treating me like a three year old,like I don't know how to save my time to do something else which are more important but guess what!I hate people controlling my life!I wanna be free like a bird in the big blue sky where I could fly freely with no one to control me.I don't want to be a bird in a cage!That's only suffering and I hate it!I bet no one likes anyone to control their lives.Not even me!well...I really hope every single parent knows about this!Don't ever control your child!They won't like it at all!

Today when i woke up, I feel so alive. I was never like this. I was always like a half dead zombie which just rose from the grave but today I seem to be quite different.About what happen in the church, I felt very bad about it and I really want to apologize to Darean but the thing is, how to contact him? There's no more money in my cell phone and I don't even know where to start explaining. Why I always have a lot problems in m head! It feels like it's going to burst any minute now. And he seldom online in the morning. It's so hard for me to apologize or anything.I'm never like this to him but why now? I just want to know the reason but I just can't find it. I really lost something in my mind but what is it? Maybe it takes time for me to look for it. I'm sure I'll be able to find it soon or else, I'll lose a friend that I never want to lose. Oh, god...What have I lost???